Friday, December 31, 2010


It is exactly 1:50am January first of 2011-yeah 2010 is over. It's gone! I was waiting for this moment for a while now and it finally came-YES with such joy.

I'm not even going to "My new years resolutions are"-nope not this year. Instead of writing and bragging even planning on it I'll just work on them and let them happen. Believe me it took me a while to learn-yeah the hard way and that's why I'm somewhat of a bitter person.

*clears throat*

I hope everyone have a great new year with their loved ones. Even the ones that decided it was best to push me out their lives last year-all good!

I am happy with my circles and I honestly don't need to add any extras back to my life-I'd like to keep it that way.

Let's make this year a good one all!

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Tuesday, December 28, 2010


It's official this month is not my month at all.
It's so much shit going on and I just want to get away from it all-I truly believe I DON'T have a safe haven. I really don't....


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Thursday, December 23, 2010

Original post " disappointed and fucking angry"

So it's exactly 5:36am on a Thursday morning of December the ummm 23rd. I am actually in my bed. Yes my own comfortable warm bed in my place in BK. I'm not in a hotel room in one of the hotels on West Sunset Blvd, Hollywood, California like I was supposed to be at this moment. How I planned this trip months ago. There's a saying "when you want something so bad it doesn't matter how or when you plan it if it wasn't meant for you to be at that place and at that particular time then there's no way it's going to happen". Well I think I learned the hard way.

Don't expect me to get into details with y'all ok. But let's just say I was and still disappointed and I am slightly getting over the fact that I'm on a "staycation"-seriously who does that? I never see the point in taking time off but stay home-FUCK! I guess there's a first time for everything-to tell you that was never my plan at all. I feel useless even though I'm trying to get a lot of things done and accomplished for those two fucking weeks. It feels great to know I can wake up whatever time I want and go to bed whenever I want but I'm not used to it and it feels funny-yeah damn good too haaa haaa. Not only I can make more time to meditate in the morning but I have more time to catch up on some more readings and other activities.

Now if I was to write this post Tuesday it would've been an angry one. A vey mean one. That's how I felt at the time because I was supposed to leave Tuesday the 21st-fuck! So the closer the day was getting he angrier I was. But I am ok now you can say.

Don't get me wrong I'm not all stressed out only for the trip I didn't go but it's other things too. I have a lot of shit going on and I'm working on them. God only knows why certain things are happening/happened. But damn I'd like to know too. Maybe if j do I might not be so disappointed.

I can thank my sweetheart for keeping ip with my negativities on a daily you can say. Thank you for trying to understand my issues and for still being there-I love you! I'd also like to thank two of my good friends Tani and Nat. Thank lovelies-love you!

Something else I learned-I'm just glad I didn't blog that Tuesday... It would've been an ugly post. Learning to shut up and walk away when angry. Keep tuis in my; "Speak when you are angry and you will make the best speech you will ever regret" -Ambrose Bierce I'm practicing it.

Anyway I'm getting sleepy......

Cali will still be here so are the other places I'd like to visit so they'll sure be a next time :-)

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Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Se mwen menm anko senye*


Konyeya mwen sou kabann mwen ap ekri sa.
Oh senye mwen kwe nan ou men'm menm. Oh senye kisa pou'm ta fe pou ede mwen jezu kri? Ede mwen non senye mwen yan.

Antou ka on sel bagay mwen konen. Lavi'm nanmen ou.

Mesi anpil an avan.

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Sunday, December 5, 2010

Something to think about*

This is actually a forward- you know one of those forward emails from a friend that wants to share something with you that you might be interested in... Yeah those. Well it's such an inspirational and a positive email I thought I should share it with you my loves.

I thank the person (my sweetheart) for sharing this email with me-yeah you. I love you and thank you love!

To the ones that took their time out if their busy schedule thank you for stopping by and I'm sure you will enjoy this.

What do you think of this?

You are never to old to set a new goal or to dream a new dream. Les Brown

Not sure who wrote this, but gives you something to think about!

When I first heard of the movie "For Colored Girls" I got so excited. I had the idea of getting as many women together that I could think of to go see this movie. I had visions of group discussions and moments shared with one another that would lead to healing and growth, I guess I kind of imagined a Womens Empowerment Conference type of setting.

Well after I shared my idea with a few women, reality set in and I realized that so many of us wouldn't be willing to participate for various reasons: You don't like me, you don't care for somebody I might invite, you only hang out with certain people, you don't understand the big deal about Tyler Perry making yet another movie about black people and our issues for all the world to see, you don't like crowds, so n so is too ghetto, such and such is too uppity etc... It has ALWAYS amazed me that we as black women are each others biggest critics. We are the quickest to bring each other down, find each others faults and nit pick at a sister until she has nothing left, nothing left to give and then we step over her and call her worthless. We take the prettiest women and tear them down for thinking "they are cute" but turn around and dog the average sista because "she know she should take better care of herself than that - can't believe she got a man!" We call strong women female dogs and accuse weaker women of riding somebody else's coat tails. We tell a big sista to put down her burger and turn around and criticize a skinny woman for not picking one up. We ride the loud mouth woman for "talking to darn much" and likewise torment the quiet woman for "Being too quiet and needing to take up for herself" Sad part is we don't discriminate, we talk about everybody!!!

I've watched women dog out everybody from Oprah for catering to white people and Halle Berry for not being able to keep a man to young Willow Smith for acting to darn grown in her recent video. All of these females are successful and there is something about each one of them to be proud of but a lot of us can't seem to see that. I have to wonder since we all share a common thread (whether we want to admit it or not) is there something about ourselves that we don't like, what has happened to us that we cannot seem to get along. Why is that we fight amongst ourselves, backstab & steal each others men(only to find out we should have left him where we found him). We cannot seem to be unified to support and stick up for one another. Everybody seems to be out for themselves while other groups unite against us but nobody else has to bring us down because we trample on the spirits of each other daily.

Even if you live in a mini mansion, drive a luxury car, have good credit, rich handsome husband etc, this does not mean that should look down your nose at the woman with 4 kids, no husband, living in income based housing struggling to keep her lights on. We ALWAYS think the grass is greener on the other side, I had a woman who's child father is MIA tell me that I should never complain because I receive a decent amount of child support and I laughed and let her know that I would gladly give every dime back if he would come relieve some of this overwhelming pressure of feeling inadequate as a parent. If I could get just one full night of sleep or not always be on the verge of losing my job because Im the one that has to call off or leave work for one reason or another to accommodate my child - yeah he could DEFINITELY have his money if I could have some peace! Money alone doesn't make you happy (not true happiness), good credit doesn't keep you satisfied, beauty doesn't make you any less insecure, fame doesn't make you less vulnerable or cause you to be a good judge of character and being stuck up and mean doesn't keep you warm at night or prevent you from being lonely.

You don't know how the sista sitting right next to could have carefully put on her make up this morning to hide the beating from last night. The teacher you handed your child over to this morning could have sent her children off to school from a dark house with empty bellies. The teller you just got rude with at the bank could know that today is her last day on her job and have no idea how she is going to survive past next weekend. The sista at the office that appears so busy could be typing her goodbyes to all the people that she loves because she plans to blow her brains out tonight after she tucks her babies into bed. The woman you pass in the hallway could be on her way to have an abortion because she fears what others might think or how the woman that sent you this e-mail may drink an over abundance of alcohol every night to mask the nightmares of an abusive childhood.

Ladies we HAVE TO DO BETTER!!! I'm not suggesting that we all like each other and be phony, But I am asking that we all try to respect each other. You HAVE NO IDEA what the next woman is going through, you don't know what past or current hurt and pains have shaped her into who she is today. We spend so much time trying to be as strong and hard as we are expected to be that we end up cracking from the inside out piece by piece. If we would spend 1/3 of the time we spend tearing each other down to build someone up, encourage someone, show someone some love, we could truly make a difference and save someone's life. PLEASE don't be the straw that breaks another woman's back. Believe me when I tell you that there is a woman out there that needs your smile, your hug, your support, your prayer.

I hope that you read this and get something out of it other than a laugh and that you pass this on to as many women as you can to let someone know that you believe they are somebody special and that if need be you are available to listen. Nothing bad is going to happen if you don't forward this e-mail but I'd like to think that something positive will happen if you choose to pass it along. May favor be extended to each and everyone of your lives, keep your head up and know that someone somewhere cares!!!

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Thursday, November 25, 2010

Happy Thanksgiving!

So another thanksgiving huh?
I know we all are happy to get a chance to see another thanksgiving-I know I am grateful, not only because I have great family, but I have some amazing friends in my life-thank GOD to that. And of course my good health that I'm always grateful for.

Yes I helped out in the kitchen for the first time on Thanksgiving today and I feel so accomplished that I get to be productive instead of staying in bed and let mom do all the slave work.
Let's see, umm I made the stuffing, mac and cheese, croissant , dressing, prep the salad and so on. It could've been just the dressing I'd still feel good about it.

Anyway I won't be going on and on about this but hope everyone and their mamas had/still having a bless thanksgiving.

Thanks for taking the time out to read this.


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Sunday, November 21, 2010

Oh Bondey ede mwen non sil vouple!

Mwen pa kon'n ki kote pou mwen konmanse onkon evre wi senye. Oh papa Bondey mwen yan ede pitit out non. Mwen tande on move nouvel yeswa ki ka chanje lavi mwen senye. Eski se vre? Eski si mwen pa tande mouve bagay ap pase'm? Esi e teste wa'p teste pitit ou ws pou gade si mwen pa respecte paran'm ou byen ou menm? Mwen fatige...mwen fatige e mwen fatige mantal, fizical and spiritwal-man. Vakanse sa mwen merite li..mwen travay di pou lajan'm sa sel man mwen bezwen wi denye vakanse sa mwen mande ou wi senye...sil vouple senye! Bondye ed pitit ou.. mesi anpil! Link

Thursday, November 11, 2010

What's in store for you this Thanksgiving?

Now that Halloween and Veterans day is over...what's next again? ummm...oh yeah we have Thanksgiving right around the corner in exactly two week right? .. *checking out my calendar* uhhhhh..yep it is in two weeks. Are you ready for Thanksgiving? Have you decided on who's going to get busy in the kitchen or not? Would it be you...your partner...the parents..maybe one of them? Come on now someone has to prepare the big dinner :-) ..or will you be going to friends and eat up all their food? Last year for Thanksgiving I went to my "friends" house, we cooked and actually had a great time. Sometimes when you don't want to be bothered with all the messes and the cleaning you just go to friends I right? :-) well not always the case because I helped them cleaned. This year I plan on getting busy in the kitchen-yep I said it. I plan on cooking Thanksgiving dinner for the family and I am very excited about that. I will also bake...I'd love to try to bake rum cake (although I'm not too good with the baking) but I will try to make some maybe this week or so and practice to see how it'll come out. Since I know someone who makes those on a regular I'll be asking for her help :-) I am too excited. That will be my plan this Thanksgiving. I won't be working-I need a break. Link

Monday, November 8, 2010

Alicia Keys - Un-thinkable (I'm Ready)...yeah I am :-)

Alicia Keys - Un-thinkable (I'm Ready)...yeah I am :-) I am so happy to share this song with you. Yeah I am late-what's new again? haaa haaa As much as I LOVE this song I really don't think the video fits the song well-my opinion! This song I feel like I am living it...I am happy where I am right now. I am grateful to have someone like her in my life. Just listen to the words and you'll see how I'm really doing :-)

Sunday, October 31, 2010


...Ok today is Halloween...blah blah we know that! I honestly don't care for this "holiday" really. I mean it's good for the kids-yeah KIDS! because kids are allowed to pretend to be something else they're not but us adults (some) live as someone else-how sad! ...(since I give people their credits). One of my twitter buddies (@meliastarfucks) who RT'ed a quote by (@THE_BOONDOCKS). He tweeted "How is Halloween different from any other day? ;people already pretending to be something they're not"-it's totally true. Who cares about Halloween? I'd say. I guess I'm never into those things-dressing up and all that stuff. I actually tried doing and getting all excited about the costume thing for a while but then I say "fuck it!"...I stopped caring about stuff like that. I rather save my money...stay home relax because after all I need it. I need my energy and my body is not the same as it was a couple of years ago haa haa #TRUTH though. anyway i hope everyone and their mamas had a safe Halloween! now time to get ya asses on a diet with all that nasty candy inside you :-)

Saturday, October 16, 2010

A quick hello!

Hello world! I am back...I know you all missed me *wink* How are you guys and gals doing? What's new? on my end all is great with me. My mom came back all well. ...wel so is my dad-ughhh! now with him now is something else. As much as I love the miserable man I would sort of ok if he was still over there (lord forgive me). Don't get me wrong I appreciate him and he's a great father but when he starts talking and nagging it's like I want to get away..he never seems to know when to STOP yapping! If I had Oprah's money I'd send him away for a while to go on a vacation. Seems to me he'smore happy back home and it's weird..Hmm! well he feels more at home and at peace. Hope you all are ready to have a wonderful productive fall and winter-I am so ready :-)

Friday, September 10, 2010


Hello World! I know I've been MIA for a bit, but I'm back. It is exactly 1:52am on a Saturday morning-nope I'm not sleepy for some reason. I have alot on my mind. I don't know where to start and even if I try I don't think I can anyway. Yeah my mom is still back home being treated-she was very ill and thanks to the LORD above she's still alive. She's doing much better, she's coming back at the end of this month and I can't wait to hold her..hug her and kiss her to tell her how much I missed her :-) Lately things has been well on my end. Nothing quite exciting-wait! actually there are a few exciting things..I'm still alive well...still have my job and other things going on but SHhhh cause I don't want to spoil anything for me. But I have no complaints. So I'll be going on vacation in December for a week and a half and I definitely can't wait for that. One thing I know for sure and believe is this vacation won't be like no other. I believe and have faith that my life will change for the better-Errr right GOD? :-) I need to get away for a while. yeah I will be going alone again-hey don't fee;l bad for's my choice..I don't know sometimes being alone is good. I know the fall has great things in store for me and so on and guess what? I am so ready to take on every opportunities...chance that GOD has for me no matter what! you watch :-) ...ok time for tea and maybe bed..... goodnight/morning!

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Monday, July 5, 2010

Enjoy the summer safely :-)

As I'm typing this I'm still in my tub filled with ice, yes ice tub and I'm in it. I couldn't take the heat anymore, it was too unbearable to stay out feeling that heat against my skin. It literally felt like I was being cooked...I just cooked and that kitchen felt like it was 1000 degrees-wheewww! I know I was born in a hot climate but it was not's hot and sunny there but there's always a cool breeze flowing around :-) Also I haven't been in that climate in years so I'm not used to it. I love cool weather, the cool breeze against my skin. That I can live with. ...Anyhow I know some of you are being cooked inside of your apartments or houses, and even in general because after all there's no hiding from this heat. This post is for everyone. The people with the ACS, FANS and some unfortunately with nothing. I'm sure most of you might know how to keep cool and may find this post "useless" but do you actually know the right way to keep cool? Yes there is such a thing as The Right Way. This heat is dangerous to us and especially for small children(s) and the elderly. If we're not careful enough and take care of each other and ourselves we'll literally be cooked and die lol....sorry but it's true. ...with that said there are a few great steps to take to keep cool while enjoy this sauna....I meant "summer"......just follow these steps and you'll be fine..or so you should :-) The first thing we need when we're thirsty is what again? WATER! No matter what when we're thirsty or just ate what do we grab first to down WATER...that's because water is LIFE. It does a lot for the body; it cleanse it, cools it, it's good for our skin, it's basically something we should drink more often than the evil sodas (don't care if it's diet either which is WOST). Now don't you think it's a good idea to have a bottle or glass of iced water ready on hand for this summer? Water quench your thirst...come ON you know it does so stop lying to yourself..go ahead and grab a bottle or two. ...people people yeah YOU! I keeping hearing, ready people's status and reading their tweets about the latest perfumes. There's nothing wrong with smelling good and getting the latest perfume but remember it's summer and that heat doesn't go well with alcohol on the doesn't go well with strong scent on the skin. It can actually do some great damage to the skin. I know someone who experienced a first degree burn from wearing Coco chanel...yep it happened. This perfume smells great but it's so strong that when you wear it on days like this it can actually affect your skin. I know everyone's skin is different and some of you has alligator skin but still be careful. I know some people who still wears White Diamonds-UGHH! seriously that perfume is something else....White Diamonds season is over..that's like spraying yourself with gasoline and get ready for the flames..the smell is not so pleasant either. The best way I'd suggest anyone to keep the good smell without doing any damages to their skin is by using simple body splash. The body splash is not as strong as the pure perfume and it last long just as a perfume (well you just have to get a good brand). I'd suggest these from Bath and Body works. I have a few of them, smells great and they last throughout the whole day. They're not as strong as perfumes. You can either do those body splashes or head to Victoria's Secret or maybe The Body Shop and grab a GO! while you all spraying on those lovely body splash scent remember to coat your skin with SUNBLOCK! yes the cream that protects your skin from that hot ass sun..the body cream that helps your skin from being flaky and burned..and soon become cancer..yeah that's called SUNBLOCK!There are hundreds of different kinds of sunblock around, you just have to find the right one for you. Most doctors recommend the ones that has SPF<30, Broad Spectrum UVA and UVB blocking agents, and you should at least use daily with frequent reapplication. Now if you want a little shine on the skin to have that "natural" summer glow try the bronzer that has SPF<30 in it. Then you're set to'll have that "natural" summer glow while protecting your skin :-) ..while worrying about our sexy skin lets not forget what we love to drink or eat.....just because it's summertime and the heat is horrible doesn't mean we can't continue our lives-it's not the end of the world people! so for the people that enjoys to go out and have a drink or two..or maybe three or umm 4. You can always continue to do that. But for the pones that usually have gatherings at their house or parties I recommend you try a chilled sangria. You will LOVE it. Not regular cold but after you make it put it in the freezer for about 15-20mins and enjoy a glass. I like my drink here and there but in this heat there's no way I will do anything strong..the heat and strong alcohol=setting yourself up for disaster. Even if you're a drinker or not you will get drunk easily because of the heat. what about the kids? to keep the kids cool while enjoying their favorite desert let them have some ice cream Hmm! I'm not an ice cream type of person but this I would definitely enjoy :-) so go out and indulged! ...some of you might want ice cream when you go outside or some like myself would preferably enjoy a Tazo Green Tea Frappuccino from Starbucks (don't even go there). I like mine with one pump of each of the syrups and one scoop of green tea match powder without the whip. The next time you visit a Starbucks try it :-) ....OK now you got all the basics and the information that you need time for you to start your Wednesday with the knowledge Val has given you. Believe me I will make the BEST out of this harsh summer with a nice glow lol.

Sunday, July 4, 2010


Good evening world....yes it's me again...there's something I'd like to share with you guys and gyals again.... Although I may not be financially ready for a car yet...which I can get any junk from anyone but I want my first car to be special and my dream car. So most of you already know I'm OBSESSED with the color GREEN and of course I'd want a GREEN car :-) ...make sense dont' you think? Anywho I don't want any ordinary car, I'd love a beetle..a cute GREEN beetle :-) they're so cute..don't care who's the maker which I'm sure it's made by one I right or do I need to do some research on that? ....I like this type of car because it's unique, small enough for exactly four people which not most cars has. With only two doors. Very simple and I like that. now time to go do my research on the maker(s). far I'm still contemplating.... why do I have a feeling I'll be an intern at the UN or at the ABC News Studio? I'd really like to work with the great Stepehn King :-) but of course not dreams like that will take FOREVER...unless I have that connection which I can try to pull but I'm not gonna stress'll come to me. I believe it. So it's one math credit (math is my enemy right now) then internship. Two years ago I thought of transferring to Hunter after all Hunter offers alot of English courses that will do me good but since I plan on moving out of state I might as well start looking into schools where I plan on moving. Now I am so excited for something that's going to happen next the end of next I can't wait already lol. God is with me on this and got my back :-) Maybe I should stop right there because I have a tendency of getting all excited for something that's supposed to happen but because I'm too hype about it it turns out the other let's just say we shall see huh!

Thursday, July 1, 2010

I am only human now back OFF w/ a ☺

I am human-I am living...I have flaws-I'm only human...Iam sensitive-I cry to some silly things you may find funny or would never cry over-my feelings are different from yours-after all I am human..I have hurt-I've been hurt but I get over it-because I am learning...I view the world totally different from others because we are all different yet the same godamn species-we are human....I have judged-discriminated-hated-treated others bad but I have learned that shit won't get me, you or anyone anywhere-I have learned to appreciate others for who they are-they're only human....I care and sometimes too caring-am I going to change who I am because assholes doesn't appreciate that? HELL NO!-I am human....I have ♥ to give and share-I am human..........................I am living..loving..appreciating life for what it has to are you? this isn't a poem, don't try to view it this way. It's not a lyric either!
No this is not about anyone in specific-GENERAL! So stop trying to figure out or assume this is about you cause it isn't!
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Monday, June 21, 2010

One of my favorite songs....Adele - Chasing Pavements

this is one of my favorite songs.....I know I'm late-always! I think you're going to like it..everytime I hear this song it does something to me :-) enjoy! Link

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Sorry I wasn't the good friend to you!

This past week I feel like the world is against me...everyone is against me-that's how I feel right now...

Promised myself not to cry again...especially over something I have no control of. I can't keep stressing it and going back and forth.

I just want to scream on top of my lungs right now.

I've lost ppl! People I considered true friends, and even sisters. Even when we do go back to being's just not the same but always hoping to get back the way we were.
I really believe I'm one of those types that isn't lucky with ppl, I don't believe I'm those types where I have a friend and know for a while and never had to cut or for them to cut me out their life..even if we do back to being cool's just different.
I never said I'm perfect, I never play the victim-why should I? If I fuck-up believe me I'll feel like I need to contact whoever and talk things out and apologize-fuck it! But I didn't do shit! I didn't fuck up!
I was not the one that assumed shit about ppl and automatically delete out their life-not me! I make sure I have good reasons, where they truly deserved it.

I am hurt to the point I'm still numb, my eyes, heart, body and head hurts. My nose was bleeding earlier! I've been cramping..I'm just a fucking emotional wreck and it's not cool! Everyone wants to take other ppls side when they're not even trying to understand what really happened or maybe they're not trying to understand or even care what happened...OUCH! But again I've been accused of lying and was told I am "dramatic" smh! Me dramatic? Are you kidding me? This must be some kind of a fucking joke cause I don't play with my feelings or have to lie about anything. Now there goes another blow!

You chose to get rid of me as a friend because of something so petty? Hey your wish is well respected. I'm not the one and can't be the one to beg for friendship...I can't anymore..I am emotionally, mentally drained. I don't have the strength for that-I'm sorry!
I can't! *shrugs*

When ppl moved on and don't need your friendship anymore they try very hard to start something..hey you won! I give up!

I need to start doing some cleansing! Mentally, physically and spiritually! I can really use some positivity in my life. I'm sure that'll work.

Like my friends say "Everyone enters your life for a season and a reason, now it's time to let them go".

*sigh* I'm here at the Promenade sitting here thinking and trying to clear my head.
I feel so lonely and just in this world where now I can't lean or be too close with anyone. I feel like getting myself too close will be a problem, that they'll just run away. I don't want to feel like this-that shit hurts!

If you happen to read this I'd like to thank you for those time we've known each other..and hope life continue well with you! GOD bless!


I hope this week goes well for me. Going to start taking yoga classes, continue with my jogging and take care of me more. Start working on myself. Be a better individual. I'm not afraid! I plan on taking the risk!

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Monday, June 14, 2010


Hello world!

I know I've been away for a while now and I guess I have no excuses-laziness!

Have you ever have this blah feeling where you're not tired or depressed just straight blah! It's worst than being depressed because when you're depressed you know why you're depressed and sad about and may fix the problem. Maybe ppl in your life might make you feel better. But the blah feeling is something no one can help you with, sometimes you can't figure out the problem or why you're such in a mood.
Everything is fine---I know they are. Although things could be better but I'm satisfied for now, I just got to get this blah feeling out of the way and start feeling like myself again.

I need to seriously start making some changes. I am willing to take the risk and to get rejected (if it comes to that).

Are you ready with me?
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Sunday, April 18, 2010


So this year I will be attending The SweetHeat Miami Pride-that'll be their 3rd annual event.
If any of you lovely rainbow birds are attending and interested this is the events and locations and don't forget about the fees-enjoy!
Pick up your VIP tickets and know whats going on during SweetHeat Weekend...Meet with other SweetHeat Attendees from around the World.. Location : Royal Palm 1545 Collins Avenue Free...In the Lobby of The Hotel.. Time 6 p.m. - 9 p.m
Thursday Night
Welcome To Miami hosted by Miamis Rap Queen TRINA SweetHeat Miami & SofTouch P.A.N.I.C. Productions presents A HollyWood Affair with Tomboyz Quarterly Hosted by : Siya Location : Club Cinema 637 Washington Ave. Time : 11 p.m. - 5 a.m. Adm : $10 all night Soundtrack provided by Dj Dimples & Dj Osh
Friday DAY
SweetHeat Pool Party THE WETTEST SECRET Sponsored by SofTouch/ P.A.N.I.C. Prod Location: Savoy Hotel - 425 Ocean Drive Hosted by KING MAGAZINE MODELS LAEANN AMOS AND BUBBLES 1 p.m. - 9 p.m. Make sure you have on the sexiest bikinis EVER!!! Prizes will be given out... Adm: $15 Soundtrack Provided by Dj Pursue, Dj MaryMac, Dj Osh
Friday Night
The Art of Partying / EYES WIDE SHUT MASQUERADE...wear your masks.... Come Fly, and Come Sexier Than You Ever Have In Your Lifeeee..... Flaunt Your Taste.. Location : Club Living Room 671 Washington Ave Doors open at 11 p.m - 6 a.m. Adm : $25 before 1230/ 30 after/ $40 (express entry) Hosted by KING MAGAZINE MODEL MIA MILANO Soundtrack Provided By Dj Pursue , Dj MaryMac
Saturday Morning
MOIST SOUTH BEACH Wet T-Shirt Contest / Open Mic Your Favorite MC's will be performing.. Location Club Cinema Time: 1 p.m. - 5 p.m. Hosted by : Siya Adm $10 Soundtrack Dj Pursue
Saturday Evening
SEKS MIAMI SWEETHEAT EDITION The Sexiest Poetry Affair EVER.... Location : Time : 5 p.m. - 8 p.m. Adm $10 Musical Background Provided by Dj Osh
Saturday Night
QUEENDOM - THE ALL WHITE AFFAIR Location : Klutch 136 Collins Avenue Time 11 p.m. - 5 a.m. Adm: $25 before 12 midnight / $35 after/ $50 (express entry) Hosted by : Soundtrack provided by Dj MaryMac Dj Dimples Dj Pursue
Sunday DAY
The WILD N WET BALL/ POOL PARTY PART 2 Hosted by Mother Reign Moulin , Mother Jaimee Baleinciaga King Magazine Model Barbie Brittania Time 1 p.m. - 8 p.m. Location : Savoy Hotel 425 Ocean Drive Adm : $15 before 3 / $20 after 4
Sunday NIGHT
SofTouch/ P.A.N.I.C. Presents BLISSSSSS - LOVE YOUR DJAYS... THE SEXIEST PARTY ON EARTH WOMENS NATION LOCATION : Club Living Room 671 Washington Ave. Time 11 p.m. - 5 a.m. Adm: $10 before 1 am 20 after 1 a.m. Hosted by : Siya Adm: $10 Soundtrack Provided by Dj Dimples, Dj Pursue, Dj Mary Mac, Dj Osh

Sunday, March 28, 2010


Good morning world!

It is exactly 6:15am on a sunday morning. can you believe it's March already? I can!

Sippin' on my Zen tea-yummm!

I was supposed to be getting ready for work right now for 8am but I called out, I'm unable to make it. I can not go to work with my hand looking like this. The flesh is out. It peeled off and it hurts.

Anywho, I need to start working on my blogs more...I'm getting behind.
A lot has happened from the last time I was here. My dad finally went back home to visit. He said everyone is doing well-thank GOD!

I'm going to SF for my birthday. I am so HAPPY. First time going there. Ppl I shared that with told me it's a great place and I'll have a great time :-) so I'm hype about that.
I've never been there. My friends were like "Wow Val, alone? What are you gonna do over there?" Ummm..visit..and what's wrong with taking a vacation by yourself anyway? Sometimes you just need that alone time where you just go and leave your area for a while and do you-like a soaring butterfly lol
I could've invited my friends to go with me but first I don't they'll want to go on somewhat short notice, secondly I really want this to be a "Val away alone" time you know. They didn't take it personal and I'm glad :-)
Booked flight since the end of Jan. I wasn't thinking about getting a package (flight & hotel) so now I still have to worry about hotel-wouldn't want to go there being homeless like a bumm do we now? LOL

Everything is ok on my hand but of course it could be better. But let's not start complaining or else things might get worst.

So hopefully the next post will be a BETTER one!
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Monday, January 25, 2010


As you all may already know about the sadness..the struggles..the suffering Haiti is experiencing right now. It is's in a coma GOD only knows for how long. It is crying blood-it has been crying blood since 1957. It has been suffering for decades now. It has been asking and needed help for years now. No one cared about it. No one cared about the ppl, their struggles their needs. No one gave a SHIT about it.
It is a country too-there are ppl living in it, human beings like yourself who has feelings..heart and all are GOD's child like yourself!!!
It is very sad and truly hurts the Haitian community..the natives to see something so tragic had to happen in order for others to give a SHIT about us, about the country!-That's fucking sad!! Fucking crazy!
I remember back in the '90s. When I was in school how some Haitians were afraid and embarrassed to say they're Haitian even to come out and say they speak creole although they were in a bilangual class SMH!-fucking sad. I remember asking some of my haitian classmates why they were afraid/ashamed to let others know they're haitians...I was never given an answer untill I overheard "others don't like haitians. You'll get beat up and discriminated against if they know you're haitian"-me: the type of person that I am I just laughed it off and be who I am. I didn't care what others thought-how come I never get a beat up? LOL Funny thing was my friends that used to help me out with my english (oh boy was it bad LOL) but the ones that used to be there for me were ashamed to reveal where they're from. There was this war between the Haitians and the Jamaicans-sad but true.
Anyhow I won't get into a story with you about this crazy shit. All I can say is that it's fucking sad.
My question was and still sometimes wonder is how come other races never gave us a hard time-it's always our blk race...why do we have to hate against one another? Your background doesn't make you better than me!
Even now who were the first one to reached out to us during our struggles? Ummmm... Ok we know it wasn't our own race SMFH!!
I miss my country. Last year I told my dad I need to go for a week and visit in Aug. coming up. I still want to go. My dad is actually leaving on tuesday that's if AA doesn't call him for the 4th times to cancel his flight LOL-I truly think that's a sign for him not to go right now-that stubborn man refused to listen!
I would also like to mention something that's been bothering me-why? Because I shouldn't have to be in pain like that. My parents always say "The only way to find out you have good friends and people in your life is when you're going through something". And they are right. People I thought were my good friends and cared about me didn't even text anything to check on me and tp see how I'm doing *sighs* I understand I'm not a child or anything but friends are supposed to be there. Ohhh! I guess I'm the one that's always gotta be there huh? Hmm! I see. I know now!
What I don't understand i s why are some people keep comapring the Haiti disaster with Katrina? Katrina was horrible and very sad. Both are VERY HORRIBLE! like my friend Tani said "Haiti's disaster is another level". Haiti's is a nation that went down!! So for the ones that doesn't give a shit or don't think they have to care because it's not their country or they don't know the language YOU NEED THE LORD IN YOUR LIFE FOR REALLLL!