Wednesday, April 8, 2015

Thank you my lord!

This post was originally typed yesterday (4/7 - my birthday ) but not sure what happened. I am another year older and thank Lord wiser - seriously I see the difference in me, my actions towards certain situations and difficulties.  The way I treat others and my purpose. I am more driven, I am determined and I love life more despite the fact that it's not exactly where I wanted it to be.

I am very grateful to still have my good health, my family and some very few real friends that decided to accept me for who I am - thank you. I also am grateful for my job (I mean it's a job but hey I am grateful for a job).

I'm not going into deep on what kind of improvements I need or speak out loud of what my goals are but instead I thank the Lord for letting me see another year and another day to make things happen.

Thank you to the ones that wished me a happy birthday, the ones that truly cares for me and my well-being. Even to the ones that I don't speak to or keep in contact more often or like "I should", you know I still have love for you and I thank you anyway.

Sunday, March 16, 2014

Missing you even when I should hate you

....I'm such a fool for missing someone that actually pushed me out of their lives, that has nothing to do with me, that actually turned their back on me when I needed them most. Someone that even said they don't care for me anymore.

I hope whatever reason they pushed me away was worth it.
Good luck.

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

This is beautiful and I'd thought maybe I can share it...

I am going to try to go all the way with the Lord's help.

Sunday, January 26, 2014 lost?

....someone asked me what did I lose last year...This was a good question and it's unfortunate I can't share too much with you folks on here...

....Let's see what I lost - ummm some friends..well they weren't true friends if they're not in my life anymore-history.
I've lost some people I valued, cared and loved and just wish they didn't do me any wrongs but that's life.
I've lost someone I've never got a chance to meet or fully loved - that's life and things happened.
I almost lose myself, my spirit, my pride and dignity over someone that had horrible and negative motives towards me - but God always have my back. the end I'm still standing and as long as I have my health, family and a few awesome friends and my job I'm pretty damn good - I'll let God take care of the rest :)
He always do a good job, always on time.

Tuesday, December 31, 2013

Ohhhh #2013

It's just so much and maybe too much to add on here but this year.....
Let's just say I am convinced the number 13 is truly a horrible number and I am so happy it's ending.

I am not going to bash it although it seemed like I did but I could've said more- I'll just leave my past in God's hands to deal with it for me. 

I'm just grateful for the opportunity to get to live and see the end of this 2013 and if God's willing I'll get another chance to have a great 2014.

I don't plan on making any New Year's resolution - we all know why. 

Instead I'm going to try to do what one of my buddies suggested on IG for 2014 - we'll see:)

Happy New Year all! 

Thursday, November 28, 2013

Another thanksgiving hmm!

Wow! Time truly is flying by, it was just Christmas the other day (that's what it seems like)-not sure if I'm ready for all the holiday nonsense though. 

Even though I should complain a bit but maybe I should save it for now. 
I should be thankful for my health along with my family's health. I am also thankful for my family who has my back no matter what happens. I am thankful for my job (yeah I am even though sometimes I want to give up but nah!), the few true friends I have in my corners that believe in me and accepts me for who I am-thank you! 

...believe it or not I am also thankful to the ones that hurts me along the way-hard way to teach me a lesson but that's how I've grown and still am growing-I appreciate the shit you put me through and I'm still standing.


Wednesday, September 11, 2013

I will never forget you and I will always love you my sweetheart.

I'm sorry you had to go like this.. You've never gotten a chance to live life-I will forever miss you my first love ❤

From that little time I've known of you and loved you felt like you were....

I'm on my couch crying and missing you and what I'm actually going through because of you-I don't blame you, it wasn't your fault my little innocent one. 

..... I can't think anymore-I'm so sorry my love. 
You have no idea how much I miss you even though I've only caught a glimpsed of you this two times-you are beautiful. 

I'm so sorry again, I love you and always will just remember that.