..*sippin' on my home-made soy latte* as I'm typing this...
....so the year is really ending huh? SMH! seems like it was a couple of days ago 2008 just ended but now '09 is leaving us? :)
for some reason I am a little sad about it because the same way I'd love to know and experience what '10 has in store for me but at the same time I'm sort of not ready-does that make sense? Although 2009 brought pain here and there at the same time it was a wonderful year for me. I can't sit here and complain about it being the "worst year" when it wasn't really-after all we control and make our own decisions and know whats best for us so who could I possibly blame?-MYSELF!
This year brought joy..happiness..surprises..hurt...disappointments..great ppl intpo my life, I am grateful for all!
This year brought back good ppl into my life, people I thought I'd never see/in contact with-thank you GOD!
I've decided to leave certain bad habits, people behind with 2009.
Sometimes writing it down really helps and I promise myself this will be the last time I will mention this-someone I truly considered a sister-a besti betrayed me and even though I tried soo hard but it felt like I was forcing myself to even smile and create a conversation with her so I had to let her go. I am sure people are going to be who they are and there are some grimey ones that has no shame in their shitty games-all good though! with that said I let her go months ago respectfully :)
...don't you ever experience something like-you have a friend and everything is cool...cool to the point that you start having interests in the person and started dating and the interests is intensed then things happen somehow it didn't work out-understandable! because it happens..because it's life. Somehow the miscommunication was a big problem-the assumptions was a big problem! now you're not even friends with the person...I know for a fact I don't do my friends any wrong, I'm not going to be the one that betrays anyone or push anyone out of my life for no reason..why?
I honestly can admit I miss our friendship..I really do and the times we spent, somehow we have things in common but because you failed to get to know me and understand me you never get to see it...I know I am history to you and you got what you wanted (me out of your life) I'm sure you're happy now-good for you!
hope you and your loved ones have a bless new year!
ok...ummm moving on right..that's what we have to do sometimes :)
I would love to thank everyone for the person they are and for accepting me for my weird..crazy and sometimes asshole ways :)
THIS IS TO THE WONDERFUL PPL IN MY LIFE-YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!
*THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE!
*THANK YOU FOR TEACHING ME THINGS I NEVER KNEW!
*THANK YOU FOR THE REALITY CHECK!
*THANK YOU FOR KEEPING UP WITH ME AND MY WAYS!
*THANK YOU FOR HURTING ME TO MAKE ME SEE WHAT I NEEDED TO WORK ON!
*THANK YOU TO THE ASSHOLES FOR MAKING ME SEE WHO YOU REALLY ARE :)
*THANK YOU FOR SEEING THE INNOCENCE IN ME!
*THANK YOU FOR A SECOND CHANCE!
*THANK YOU FOR BELIEVING IN ME!
*THANK YOU FOR BEING HONEST WITH ME EVEN IF IT HURTS-KEEP ON!
*THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU AND THANK YOU FOR ALL!
I LOVE YOU!
...I am ready for 2010 and for whats in store for me :)
I plan on being a better person to the ones in my life...I will certainly work-on my faults and things that seriously needed work on!
...as I'm leaving you guys right now I'd love to wish everyone A WONDERFUL NEW YEAR AND SEE YA NEXT TIME :)
THANKS FOR SHOWING THE LOVE.....