Ohhhh #2013

It's just so much and maybe too much to add on here but this year.....
Let's just say I am convinced the number 13 is truly a horrible number and I am so happy it's ending.

I am not going to bash it although it seemed like I did but I could've said more- I'll just leave my past in God's hands to deal with it for me. 

I'm just grateful for the opportunity to get to live and see the end of this 2013 and if God's willing I'll get another chance to have a great 2014.

I don't plan on making any New Year's resolution - we all know why. 

Instead I'm going to try to do what one of my buddies suggested on IG for 2014 - we'll see:)

Happy New Year all! 

Another thanksgiving hmm!

Wow! Time truly is flying by, it was just Christmas the other day (that's what it seems like)-not sure if I'm ready for all the holiday nonsense though. 

Even though I should complain a bit but maybe I should save it for now. 

I should be thankful for my health along with my family's health. I am also thankful for my family who has my back no matter what happens. I am thankful for my job (yeah I am even though sometimes I want to give up but nah!), the few true friends I have in my corners that believe in me and accepts me for who I am-thank you! 

...believe it or not I am also thankful to the ones that hurts me along the way-hard way to teach me a lesson but that's how I've grown and still am growing-I appreciate the shit you put me through and I'm still standing.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING ALL AND BE SAFE! 

I will never forget you and I will always love you my sweetheart.

I'm sorry you had to go like this.. You've never gotten a chance to live life-I will forever miss you my first love ❤

From that little time I've known of you and loved you felt like you were....

I'm on my couch crying and missing you and what I'm actually going through because of you-I don't blame you, it wasn't your fault my little innocent one. 

..... I can't think anymore-I'm so sorry my love. 

You have no idea how much I miss you even though I've only caught a glimpsed of you this two times-you are beautiful. 

I'm so sorry again, I love you and always will just remember that. 

My not-so good summer!

Good evening world!

Hope your summer is treating you all well. 

This summer is very ummmm weird-mostly rain.

I can honestly say this summer isn't a good one for me at all. 

Family-wise great (thank God), health-wise (thank God too), work-wise (the same). 

As far as anything else like how I planned on spending it-you'd think it'd go the way I expected and planned? As always NOPE!

I've met some awesome people along the way and some I knew for quite some time and became closer through the spring and summer which I'm grateful for and still am even though I'm  not in their lives anymore. 

Some that I've learned a lot from on life experiences and other aspects on life-grateful like always. 

I've learned a little about myself and I'm still learning and growing. 

I've made some horrible decisions alone the way-but we're not gonna go there eh!

I don't regret any of them. 

As much as I should or to some people they would but not me. 

If anything I am blessed to share those wonderful experiences with who God blessed me with. 

BEAUTIFUL EXPERIENCES! :-)

Now I will see what this fall has in store for me-not planning on anything at all. I'll just let it come and go with the flow of it all. 

Thank you! 

Car accident? Really?!!

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....... Not sure if I should post this or not.. I may be judged and blamed...
...but then again it wasn't my fault it's not like........ *sigh*

I had a long week, very long but like always and I still am not sure why I continue to complain. *sigh*
..maybe because I have in the back of my mind "if I complain maybe...MAYBE my days will be a little shorter and less stressful"-but nope, NEVER!!

So.....
...because my weeks are always stressful and long I always try to end it well, either hang with friend or get in contact with someone I'm closed to for some positive deep conversations-basically to vent.
(THAT'S NOT REALLY THE POINT)......


.....fuck it I'll come clean-

I had a car accident. Yeah I'm writing this hours after the car accident in my bed after I popped two Advil PM for that horrible headache (no not from getting hurt-thank god), but from shock, stress, anger, I have so many emotions going on that I am a mess.

No, no one got hurt-thank god. There were no kids involved.

It was between my car and a rental car. But I see there were other accidents before mine all in the same spot.
Let's just say my car is pretty messed-up that it was towed :-(
Again no one got hurt which is more important for me I swear.
I was not the only one that was involved in the accident, it was two other cars-all because of one car on the belt, there were in total 3 cars that got towed including mine.

I was and still am very disappointed in myself, I am a careful driver and promised myself to never get into an accident but a year and two days from being a driver look what happened? :-(
I am ashamed.

I do have full coverage but that's not the point.
The point is how the fuck did I get into an accident?

Also God didn't turned his back on me and I feel so good about that. Believe me I'm sure it could've been worst.
My mother also gave me some great advice, she just made me feel so much better. Her kind words.

God also sent Mark to my rescue, for being there for me and comfort me and to gave me a ride home.
He called me many times today to check-up on me.
He is awesome.
None of my friends know about this (well now they're going to)-but I mentioned it to someone-"who cares?"-that's the vibe I get from the person. I thought that maybe they'd care but I am wrong I guess.

I am still in shock and emotional about everything.

Hope you all had a good day.