HAPPY NEW YEAR-THANK YOU!

..*sippin' on my home-made soy latte* as I'm typing this...

....so the year is really ending huh? SMH! seems like it was a couple of days ago 2008 just ended but now '09 is leaving us? :)

for some reason I am a little sad about it because the same way I'd love to know and experience what '10 has in store for me but at the same time I'm sort of not ready-does that make sense? Although 2009 brought pain here and there at the same time it was a wonderful year for me. I can't sit here and complain about it being the "worst year" when it wasn't really-after all we control and make our own decisions and know whats best for us so who could I possibly blame?-MYSELF!

This year brought joy..happiness..surprises..hurt...disappointments..great ppl intpo my life, I am grateful for all!

This year brought back good ppl into my life, people I thought I'd never see/in contact with-thank you GOD!

I've decided to leave certain bad habits, people behind with 2009.

Sometimes writing it down really helps and I promise myself this will be the last time I will mention this-someone I truly considered a sister-a besti betrayed me and even though I tried soo hard but it felt like I was forcing myself to even smile and create a conversation with her so I had to let her go. I am sure people are going to be who they are and there are some grimey ones that has no shame in their shitty games-all good though! with that said I let her go months ago respectfully :)

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...don't you ever experience something like-you have a friend and everything is cool...cool to the point that you start having interests in the person and started dating and the interests is intensed then things happen somehow it didn't work out-understandable! because it happens..because it's life. Somehow the miscommunication was a big problem-the assumptions was a big problem! now you're not even friends with the person...I know for a fact I don't do my friends any wrong, I'm not going to be the one that betrays anyone or push anyone out of my life for no reason..why?

I honestly can admit I miss our friendship..I really do and the times we spent, somehow we have things in common but because you failed to get to know me and understand me you never get to see it...I know I am history to you and you got what you wanted (me out of your life) I'm sure you're happy now-good for you!

hope you and your loved ones have a bless new year!

*clears throat*

ok...ummm moving on right..that's what we have to do sometimes :)

I would love to thank everyone for the person they are and for accepting me for my weird..crazy and sometimes asshole ways :)

THIS IS TO THE WONDERFUL PPL IN MY LIFE-YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!

*THANK YOU FOR BEING THERE!

*THANK YOU FOR TEACHING ME THINGS I NEVER KNEW!

*THANK YOU FOR THE REALITY CHECK!

*THANK YOU FOR KEEPING UP WITH ME AND MY WAYS!

*THANK YOU FOR HURTING ME TO MAKE ME SEE WHAT I NEEDED TO WORK ON!

*THANK YOU TO THE ASSHOLES FOR MAKING ME SEE WHO YOU REALLY ARE :)

*THANK YOU FOR SEEING THE INNOCENCE IN ME!

*THANK YOU FOR A SECOND CHANCE!

*THANK YOU FOR BELIEVING IN ME!

*THANK YOU FOR BEING HONEST WITH ME EVEN IF IT HURTS-KEEP ON!

*THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU AND THANK YOU FOR ALL!

I LOVE YOU!

...I am ready for 2010 and for whats in store for me :)

I plan on being a better person to the ones in my life...I will certainly work-on my faults and things that seriously needed work on!

...as I'm leaving you guys right now I'd love to wish everyone A WONDERFUL NEW YEAR AND SEE YA NEXT TIME :)

THANKS FOR SHOWING THE LOVE.....

*EXITING OUT*

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Thank you GOD for another year!

AWWWW I HAD TO LOL

AT THE "THE L WORD" PARTY IN PHILLY

NO COMMENTS LOL

MY FIRST VOLUNTEERING TABLE AT GRAMERCY

MY SURPRISED BIRTHDAY MY EX-BEST FRIEND HAD FOR ME :)-MISSED THOSE DAYS! AT THIS CLUB IN PHILLY

ME IN TX LAST YEAR AROUND THIS TIME

Hello everyone, Welcome again to my spot!

First I would like to wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!! and hope you all had a great '08 and hope you get to see many more in '09 and so on.

I know some of my good friends and my best friend heard it before and knows it and some of my other people I associate already heard me wishing them a great new year (blah blah). But I really would like to take the time out to thank and let people in my life know how much I appreciate them for being who they are-the best, the good, not so good, assholes (that's what makes you who you are), and the crazy ones (love you too) lol.

Looking back in '08, it was a very good year for me and I can honestly say I've come encounters with so many different types of individuals that I want to stay friends with and some I don't want in my life at all.

I've gone places that I've never been before and would like to visit again next year and maybe live in in two years (maybe that'll be my new years resolution for 2010) ::shrugs::

and some places I don't want to go back and waste my money again. But 2008 was a better than 2007-that I can say.

I've got hurt (feelings) by someone whom I truly loved and cared for, but hey that's life, regardless of anything if someone choses to hurt you no matter how deep is your love for them they will do it (no excuses!)

But I am over it..I am single and loving it lol..seriously it's totally fine ::smiles: I know GOD has a reason for whatever and why certain things happened the way they did.

I am greatful for whatever GOD has blessed me with ...

I am GRATEFUL for:

*good health (family)

*great ppl in my life

*full of self-love

*strong and smart

*my jobs

*and just every little thing else

I plan on leaving alot of old, bad habits and bad apples behind, some are personal that I can't share with you. But some are just simple little things that I need to get rid of and move on.

I plan on taking life more seriously and continue to live it to the fullest.

I've come to realized my priorities (be there for family, school, work, me and taking care of me more) is more important than anything else in this world.

I plan on being there for my friends more and try to come to an understanding that it's not and doesn't have to be all about ME all the damn times!

I plan on better my life, as in stay focused when in school and be more focused to my inner self/being, and to really understand who I am.

Continue to be the loving, sensitive individual that I am and not let the unsensitive assholes/anyone tell me otherwise.

I plan on continuing to give and share my love (to the ones that are worth it).

Ok now that you see what I'm planing on doing and you can understanding it or not that's up to you!

ohhhhh...before I put this down ,whoever is reading my page and feel like it's about them which after all if you feel some type of way-I guess it's you then ::smiles::

.....I plan on LEAVING/IGNORING THE BAD APPLES behind (who eats or would even pick up a bad apple off the ground anyway?) NOT ME! ok ok..I did but don't want to and trying not to for '09.

So I plan on deleting alot of "friends from '08 (the ones that's never there for me, the lames and the flakes, the ones that promised shyt but can't do shyt about it and always have this "I don't give a shyt attitude)..life is not about "oh that's not my business and why should I care". Or "Why should I care when that's the type of person that I am? I can't help it") I need more positive, self oriented individuals in my life. I am tired of the fakes ones and tired of someone I considered real but was dead wrong about.

GOD knows how much we all need positive thinkers and individuals in our lives. I know I do.

I have alot of goals that much be achived this year, better yeat before my birthday (April).

I plan on getting my license (grandma needs to be a lil faster lol)

I want to do my internship this fall.

I want this and I want that....::screaming::

I WANT IT ALL LOL!!

ok I should stop.....

oh but wait.....I can say I need to lose like Mmm!! ::looking in the mirror: 15lbs.

I can toned up a bit.

I can slow down on the partying and the drinking (well maybe to that one).

I plan on using my money wisely-recession hello lol

I can slow down on the talking (talk too much sometimes lol)..seriously I can slow down...

I would like to thank you all for being a part in my journey (life) and for being who you are....

and have a great new year..TTYL!!

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