....my lost?

....someone asked me what did I lose last year...This was a good question and it's unfortunate I can't share too much with you folks on here...

....Let's see what I lost - ummm some friends..well they weren't true friends if they're not in my life anymore-history.
I've lost some people I valued, cared and loved and just wish they didn't do me any wrongs but that's life.
I've lost someone I've never got a chance to meet or fully loved - that's life and things happened.
I almost lose myself, my spirit, my pride and dignity over someone that had horrible and negative motives towards me - but God always have my back.

...at the end I'm still standing and as long as I have my health, family and a few awesome friends and my job I'm pretty damn good - I'll let God take care of the rest :)
He always do a good job, always on time.

the importance of MOM and true FRIENDS!!

Hello all, I know I've been away for quite some time now-I've been very busy. I had to register for school...do my financial papers, you know basically get my shyt together (so have to go back), plus work has been keeping me away. Oh, umm I also haven't been myself for a couple of days...like a week or so due to some nasty horrible flu :( To tell you the truth, I thought that was the end for me that's how sick I was, I didn't go to work that whole entire week nor even attend the events I was supposed to volunteer at. That's how sick I was, I was in bed all day and everyday. BUT the only person that really made me feel better of course besides GOD was my mother-dad is away back home. But mom of course is always there when in need even when not in need she knows it :) Seriously without GOD spiritually and mom who made sure I put something in my belly (cause a bad cold takes away your appetite completely) and I was feeling weak and tired easily. So mom took care of me. She's a FUCKING ANGEL and I thank GOD for having the best mom ever!!!! So for the ppl that thinks "there's a time in your life you need to grow up and take care of yourself and be independent, you don't need mom anymore" and I'd say to them "Just shut it up!! wonder what kind of mom raised you that you don't think you'll never need her?"" then I would roll my eyes* Yes there are points in our lives we need to be independent and take care of ourselves but the feeling of knowing and having that wonderful mom-her touch (when she touches my neck and forehead to see if I have the fever), her soothing words (asking how I'm feeling every couple of mins. And telling me I will be well soon and not to worry. And everytime I thanked her shereplies "don't thank me, it"s my job"). Her support (always made sure I eat at least soup and take my meds) oh did I mentioned she's the fucking best? Well she's a fucking ANGEL!!!! ::::sippin' on some theraflu::::: Ok....I may not say it well and I don't care right now, but I'm sure you've heard of "When you're in need or sick that's when you can really tell for sure who your true friends are?" well I did came to that conclusion or "That's when you know for sure who really gives a shyt about you (the ppl in your life) whoever" guess what? I think GOD was trying to make me see something....I know you may think "what is she talking about?" But read carefully please and it's the fucking truth!!!! My best friend, val was there for me throughout my entire sickness, by calling me every couple of hours each day, she even came to my house to give me some med she thought might be good to take. Now there's a few peeps I'm cool with at work (well won't be anymore), did they even texted me to ask how I was feeling? NO FUCKING WAY!!! Guess what? Not even my own manager LOL....yup I'm serious, but let's leave it at that. Now he just texted me asking me "hey plo, you feeling better to work today?" Come on guys what should I replied back? Should I text back telling him "to go fuck his fat self"? Or to just "fuck you fat fuck?" Or just ignore it? Still debating Mmmm!!! Oh something else, this is how much I'm loved by plenty you guys-I was supposed to be at SOBS to do some volunteering work, ok I emailed the lady who's in charge and the person I was supposed to work with at 3 fucking something in the morning and texted them, ok I got a reply from the person I was supposed to work with but not the lady who's in charge of the local outreached-Mmmm!! Wonder why! Maybe she was upset cause I could not make it, or whatever the reason is, but whatever it is my health comes first-I'm sorry I was hack hack hack and feeling weak, sick all over and all I could do is stay in bed rather than go out in this cold and take the freaking public tranportation...sorry I couldn't go out to make myself worst, oh that event was supposed to be more important than my own fucking health, I didn't know it worked like that smhhh!!!But my point is I now came to a realization and have a true understanding of a good friendship, and the the appreciation of the great ppl I have in my life. THANK YOU GOD AGAIN AND MOM!! Link

Thank you GOD for another year!

AWWWW I HAD TO LOL

AT THE "THE L WORD" PARTY IN PHILLY

NO COMMENTS LOL

MY FIRST VOLUNTEERING TABLE AT GRAMERCY

MY SURPRISED BIRTHDAY MY EX-BEST FRIEND HAD FOR ME :)-MISSED THOSE DAYS! AT THIS CLUB IN PHILLY

ME IN TX LAST YEAR AROUND THIS TIME

Hello everyone, Welcome again to my spot!

First I would like to wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!! and hope you all had a great '08 and hope you get to see many more in '09 and so on.

I know some of my good friends and my best friend heard it before and knows it and some of my other people I associate already heard me wishing them a great new year (blah blah). But I really would like to take the time out to thank and let people in my life know how much I appreciate them for being who they are-the best, the good, not so good, assholes (that's what makes you who you are), and the crazy ones (love you too) lol.

Looking back in '08, it was a very good year for me and I can honestly say I've come encounters with so many different types of individuals that I want to stay friends with and some I don't want in my life at all.

I've gone places that I've never been before and would like to visit again next year and maybe live in in two years (maybe that'll be my new years resolution for 2010) ::shrugs::

and some places I don't want to go back and waste my money again. But 2008 was a better than 2007-that I can say.

I've got hurt (feelings) by someone whom I truly loved and cared for, but hey that's life, regardless of anything if someone choses to hurt you no matter how deep is your love for them they will do it (no excuses!)

But I am over it..I am single and loving it lol..seriously it's totally fine ::smiles: I know GOD has a reason for whatever and why certain things happened the way they did.

I am greatful for whatever GOD has blessed me with ...

I am GRATEFUL for:

*good health (family)

*great ppl in my life

*full of self-love

*strong and smart

*my jobs

*and just every little thing else

I plan on leaving alot of old, bad habits and bad apples behind, some are personal that I can't share with you. But some are just simple little things that I need to get rid of and move on.

I plan on taking life more seriously and continue to live it to the fullest.

I've come to realized my priorities (be there for family, school, work, me and taking care of me more) is more important than anything else in this world.

I plan on being there for my friends more and try to come to an understanding that it's not and doesn't have to be all about ME all the damn times!

I plan on better my life, as in stay focused when in school and be more focused to my inner self/being, and to really understand who I am.

Continue to be the loving, sensitive individual that I am and not let the unsensitive assholes/anyone tell me otherwise.

I plan on continuing to give and share my love (to the ones that are worth it).

Ok now that you see what I'm planing on doing and you can understanding it or not that's up to you!

ohhhhh...before I put this down ,whoever is reading my page and feel like it's about them which after all if you feel some type of way-I guess it's you then ::smiles::

.....I plan on LEAVING/IGNORING THE BAD APPLES behind (who eats or would even pick up a bad apple off the ground anyway?) NOT ME! ok ok..I did but don't want to and trying not to for '09.

So I plan on deleting alot of "friends from '08 (the ones that's never there for me, the lames and the flakes, the ones that promised shyt but can't do shyt about it and always have this "I don't give a shyt attitude)..life is not about "oh that's not my business and why should I care". Or "Why should I care when that's the type of person that I am? I can't help it") I need more positive, self oriented individuals in my life. I am tired of the fakes ones and tired of someone I considered real but was dead wrong about.

GOD knows how much we all need positive thinkers and individuals in our lives. I know I do.

I have alot of goals that much be achived this year, better yeat before my birthday (April).

I plan on getting my license (grandma needs to be a lil faster lol)

I want to do my internship this fall.

I want this and I want that....::screaming::

I WANT IT ALL LOL!!

ok I should stop.....

oh but wait.....I can say I need to lose like Mmm!! ::looking in the mirror: 15lbs.

I can toned up a bit.

I can slow down on the partying and the drinking (well maybe to that one).

I plan on using my money wisely-recession hello lol

I can slow down on the talking (talk too much sometimes lol)..seriously I can slow down...

I would like to thank you all for being a part in my journey (life) and for being who you are....

and have a great new year..TTYL!!

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