Thank you my lord!

This post was originally typed yesterday (4/7 - my birthday ) but not sure what happened.

....so I am another year older and thank Lord wiser - seriously I see the difference in me, my actions towards certain situations and difficulties.  The way I treat others and my purpose. I am more driven, I am determined and I love life more despite the fact that it's not exactly where I wanted it to be.

I am very grateful to still have my good health, my family and some very few real friends that decided to accept me for who I am - thank you. I also am grateful for my job (I mean it's a job but hey I am grateful for a job).

I'm not going into deep on what kind of improvements I need or speak out loud of what my goals are but instead I thank the Lord for letting me see another year and another day to make things happen.

Thank you to the ones that wished me a happy birthday, the ones that truly cares for me and my well-being. Even to the ones that I don't speak to or keep in contact more often or like "I should", you know I still have love for you and I thank you anyway.

Missing you even when I should hate you

....I'm such a fool for missing someone that actually pushed me out of their lives, that has nothing to do with me, that actually turned their back on me when I needed them most. Someone that even said they don't care for me anymore.

I hope whatever reason they pushed me away was worth it.
Good luck.

This is beautiful and I'd thought maybe I can share it...

http://luthas.com/2014/01/15/19-hard-things-you-need-to-do-to-be-successful/

I am going to try to go all the way with the Lord's help.

....my lost?

....someone asked me what did I lose last year...This was a good question and it's unfortunate I can't share too much with you folks on here...

....Let's see what I lost - ummm some friends..well they weren't true friends if they're not in my life anymore-history.
I've lost some people I valued, cared and loved and just wish they didn't do me any wrongs but that's life.
I've lost someone I've never got a chance to meet or fully loved - that's life and things happened.
I almost lose myself, my spirit, my pride and dignity over someone that had horrible and negative motives towards me - but God always have my back.

...at the end I'm still standing and as long as I have my health, family and a few awesome friends and my job I'm pretty damn good - I'll let God take care of the rest :)
He always do a good job, always on time.

Ohhhh #2013

It's just so much and maybe too much to add on here but this year.....
Let's just say I am convinced the number 13 is truly a horrible number and I am so happy it's ending.

I am not going to bash it although it seemed like I did but I could've said more- I'll just leave my past in God's hands to deal with it for me. 

I'm just grateful for the opportunity to get to live and see the end of this 2013 and if God's willing I'll get another chance to have a great 2014.

I don't plan on making any New Year's resolution - we all know why. 

Instead I'm going to try to do what one of my buddies suggested on IG for 2014 - we'll see:)

Happy New Year all! 

Another thanksgiving hmm!

Wow! Time truly is flying by, it was just Christmas the other day (that's what it seems like)-not sure if I'm ready for all the holiday nonsense though. 

Even though I should complain a bit but maybe I should save it for now. 

I should be thankful for my health along with my family's health. I am also thankful for my family who has my back no matter what happens. I am thankful for my job (yeah I am even though sometimes I want to give up but nah!), the few true friends I have in my corners that believe in me and accepts me for who I am-thank you! 

...believe it or not I am also thankful to the ones that hurts me along the way-hard way to teach me a lesson but that's how I've grown and still am growing-I appreciate the shit you put me through and I'm still standing.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING ALL AND BE SAFE! 

I will never forget you and I will always love you my sweetheart.

I'm sorry you had to go like this.. You've never gotten a chance to live life-I will forever miss you my first love ❤

From that little time I've known of you and loved you felt like you were....

I'm on my couch crying and missing you and what I'm actually going through because of you-I don't blame you, it wasn't your fault my little innocent one. 

..... I can't think anymore-I'm so sorry my love. 

You have no idea how much I miss you even though I've only caught a glimpsed of you this two times-you are beautiful. 

I'm so sorry again, I love you and always will just remember that. 

My not-so good summer!

Good evening world!

Hope your summer is treating you all well. 

This summer is very ummmm weird-mostly rain.

I can honestly say this summer isn't a good one for me at all. 

Family-wise great (thank God), health-wise (thank God too), work-wise (the same). 

As far as anything else like how I planned on spending it-you'd think it'd go the way I expected and planned? As always NOPE!

I've met some awesome people along the way and some I knew for quite some time and became closer through the spring and summer which I'm grateful for and still am even though I'm  not in their lives anymore. 

Some that I've learned a lot from on life experiences and other aspects on life-grateful like always. 

I've learned a little about myself and I'm still learning and growing. 

I've made some horrible decisions alone the way-but we're not gonna go there eh!

I don't regret any of them. 

As much as I should or to some people they would but not me. 

If anything I am blessed to share those wonderful experiences with who God blessed me with. 

BEAUTIFUL EXPERIENCES! :-)

Now I will see what this fall has in store for me-not planning on anything at all. I'll just let it come and go with the flow of it all. 

Thank you! 

Car accident? Really?!!

.....
....... Not sure if I should post this or not.. I may be judged and blamed...
...but then again it wasn't my fault it's not like........ *sigh*

I had a long week, very long but like always and I still am not sure why I continue to complain. *sigh*
..maybe because I have in the back of my mind "if I complain maybe...MAYBE my days will be a little shorter and less stressful"-but nope, NEVER!!

So.....
...because my weeks are always stressful and long I always try to end it well, either hang with friend or get in contact with someone I'm closed to for some positive deep conversations-basically to vent.
(THAT'S NOT REALLY THE POINT)......


.....fuck it I'll come clean-

I had a car accident. Yeah I'm writing this hours after the car accident in my bed after I popped two Advil PM for that horrible headache (no not from getting hurt-thank god), but from shock, stress, anger, I have so many emotions going on that I am a mess.

No, no one got hurt-thank god. There were no kids involved.

It was between my car and a rental car. But I see there were other accidents before mine all in the same spot.
Let's just say my car is pretty messed-up that it was towed :-(
Again no one got hurt which is more important for me I swear.
I was not the only one that was involved in the accident, it was two other cars-all because of one car on the belt, there were in total 3 cars that got towed including mine.

I was and still am very disappointed in myself, I am a careful driver and promised myself to never get into an accident but a year and two days from being a driver look what happened? :-(
I am ashamed.

I do have full coverage but that's not the point.
The point is how the fuck did I get into an accident?

Also God didn't turned his back on me and I feel so good about that. Believe me I'm sure it could've been worst.
My mother also gave me some great advice, she just made me feel so much better. Her kind words.

God also sent Mark to my rescue, for being there for me and comfort me and to gave me a ride home.
He called me many times today to check-up on me.
He is awesome.
None of my friends know about this (well now they're going to)-but I mentioned it to someone-"who cares?"-that's the vibe I get from the person. I thought that maybe they'd care but I am wrong I guess.

I am still in shock and emotional about everything.

Hope you all had a good day.

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL!

So this is when it'll be a good time to wish everyone and their mamas a Happy New Year right?

I seriously wish you all a great upcoming year.

How was last year for you all?
Seriously how was it? Was it great, awesome, bad, fucked-up, oh just "ehh! Could be better?

Mine was good and of course could be better but I am still grateful because I get to experienced every bit of it and accomplished some of my goals-not too bad right? Right :-)

Let's see here:
2012:
My good health and families, the continuing love I get from them and support.
My job which I'm grateful for even though sometimes I wanna choke most of them at my job (I'm serious about that one!)-but the company I love.

Let's see here.... Oh yeah I eliminated a lot of baggages-some I never thought I'd get rid of and sadly I did but again I come first and my well-being.
Some I should've gotten rid of years ago and god made it possible to finally do that.
Ummm..... It was confirmed that I have very few people I call friends and that I'm a loner let's see here... I think in the fall. Actually no! In the spring.
I think that's about it and I'm ok with that.

I've also met some great people that hopefully will stay in my life for good and grateful for-thank god for that.

Oh.. I'll mention this anyway because to me it is a big deal hee hee!
I got my license and got my first car-I am very happy.
I am free and all me :-)

Now next year........
... Nah! I won't be posting anything about next year till around the same time.
Some of you know that I have a tendency of jinxing myself whenever I speak my business so I'll keep it on a hush... *wink* we'll see.

HAPPY NEW YEAR MY LOVELIES!

******Be safe and don't be a pendeja/pendejos by drinking and driving!

Happy Thanksgiving world!

Today I worked (requested to)-or I'd be volunteering.
No I don't make thanksgiving a big deal like other people-why?
Because me and my family are thankful and blessed every single day for having each other, our health, the love we have and support we have for each other.
We are thankful for our job(s), the true friends we have in our lives.
It's nothing new to us.
Me on the other hand I rather work or volunteer. This year for thanksgiving I'm not volunteering (I didn't read my email on time)-which means next year I'll be making up for it :-)

Hope you all are having/had a tasty safe thanksgiving.

Sandy, what have you done?

Happy first day of November everyone!

We all know that Sandy came to visit us (which we didn't need her visit).
Sandy took lives, houses, cars, even our peace of mind.
Some people are still suffering after the effect of Sandy.

Now most public transportations are affect by this disaster.

Me-I'm home and I don't plan on going to work for the rest of the week.

I hope you all are having a safe rest of the week
Try to think positive on what's going on and make the of it-that's all we can do.




Have a good day all!

...strange but an #awesome encounter!

Lady on the train that I sat next to reached over and tapped me on the arm and (I thought WTF you tapping me for) but I turned toward her and smile and asked "yes?"
Her: forgive me but I think I should say this wether you're a believer or not. You're such a beautiful person now don't let anyone change that. You must not let anyone make you a different person you don't need to be.

(all this time I'm there listening and in my head I'm like omg who is this lady?)

Her: You have so much on your shoulders, let some of the burdens free, some don't need to be there.
Some people will try just about anything to make others lives miserable just because theirs aren't the way they wanted it to be.
Let them dig their grave and they'll find themselves digging two by trying to do wrong.
You must not worry.
The only thing that should always matter to you and must come first is your family and your health and the rest will fall into place like they should be.
I'm sorry for disturbing you and I just had to share that with you ma'am"

Then her stop and she got up and left without looking back.
That was weird and scary but so refreshing.
Not sure why but I had a good feeling too.
Like where did she came from?
Those were the questions I kept asking myself.

She made my day despite the fact that I don't know her and never seen her before on that 4 line. How the hell she knew I'm stressed-out?!

Hello world!

Good morning everyone!

I know it's been a while since I showed my traces here and please forgive me.
I'll make sure it doesn't happen again (..but do you realize how many times I've said that?)-this time I truly mean it.
A lot has been going on in my life lately and unfortunately some aren't pretty good-you know the usual (personal issues, and work). Besides that I'm doing well.

May you all have a wonderful labor day weekend.
Stay safe y'all!

...oh I almost forget: the people that sent me personal messages asking to see a recent picture of me keep scrolling to the bottom-enjoy!

....my hands are washed and moving on!

"​If you leave without a reason, do not come back with an excuse."

Just because you know someone for years doesn't make them your "best friend" or "the sister you never had", even "another sister". Believe me I learned that the hard way.

I've came across people that I've known for years, trusted and considered best friends and even "sisters" but they all hurt me and decided to walk out of my life.
The person that I am, I treat each and everyone in my life with equal respect that they deserved. I gave them no reason to treat me this way or to walk out but they did and they did it on their own.
I think that's one of the reasons I don't feel bad, because if I gave you no reason and you did it anyway well that's on you. That's why they always feel stupid and tried to come back.

I am so over some of them.
You decided to walk out on your own so stay out.
I also believe it's god's way and a sign to let me know that at the end they weren't meant to be in my life. So I will have to accept that.

....some my friendship with that person was to their advantage-I don't need that!

I have moved on.
I am smarter. Wiser and have washed my hands off-respect that!

.. lil bit of positivity always gives me life

After this long crazy somewhat drama-filled "trip".. That "get-away" which was supposed to be my birthday gift to myself turned to total shit.

Thank to Evelyn for posting this on her blog-yes I stole it :-)

Those little words was just what I wanted.

Every little bit helps.

Hope everyone had a nice safe weekend.
Mine was safe just shitty-but I'll have to look on the bright side it could've been worst. Thank god I am able to see another day and that's all that matters.

Thank You!

I would like to thank God for another day, year, a fresh start.

I am grateful I get to see another birthday and wishing so many more.

I would also like to thank you all for the birthday wish and the love.

It means so much to me and I will never forget that.

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....maybe a little #TMI but whatever!

Hello my wonderful people,
How are you all doing?

This is going to be a short one-promise. I'll try at least.

I'm sharing because I felt like I need to, some of you might think "WTF" but stop reading right now and exit if you'd like.

So this is my first time trying the INFINITY in the always brand. I Always use the Always but it's always the (with wings-four walls protection)-yeah that kind. It keeps me very secure and comfortable, it makes me feel confident. So is the Always Tampax pearls-the best.

I decided to get that new INFINITY. well for sure it keeps me dry, now comfortable? Ummmm....it's ok, could've been better. Maybe because of the slenderness. I'm one of the people that don't really like anything heavy between my legs to feel uncomfortable but the INFINITY is a little too thin.

Like I said it's my first time-I'll definitely come back and write a short review on the bottom of that post to let you know how my experience was once Ms. Flow leaves my apt.

HILARIOUS!

I find this to be funny and so true-sorry but it's cute!

#random just because....

Hola again world!

So weekend just passed with me on the couch with a laptop in front of me searching and basically doing my homework on cars, the best deals, models, mileages, year, also what to expect when I visit a dealership. I was doing my homework.

I didn't go anywhere despite the fact that I got invited to places. My cramps were really bad (what's new?). But I didn't want to be bothered by anyone.
I wanted this long weekend to be about me and be at my house.

What I realized is that I'm so over the partying scene and the clubbing a long time ago. I'm sure it has to do with the fact that I'm older and wiser, I know what/where to spend my money plus the body isn't the same anymore- Haaaaa! But I'm serious.
I've been there and done that.
I'm more of a lounge or bar type of person. I'm a grown ass woman lol. Who has time to get it on a dance floor anymore? I still have my moves but I'm done.
Crazy how I was known well still known as the dance machine-I remember them days lol.

But I rather from time to time go to a lounge and enjoy my time with people who'll appreciate my company and not make plans with flakes like I used to-no planning with flakes. I'm smarter.

Anyway, hope you all had an awesome long weekend.
Hope next weekend is better.