Car accident? Really?!!

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....... Not sure if I should post this or not.. I may be judged and blamed...
...but then again it wasn't my fault it's not like........ *sigh*

I had a long week, very long but like always and I still am not sure why I continue to complain. *sigh*
..maybe because I have in the back of my mind "if I complain maybe...MAYBE my days will be a little shorter and less stressful"-but nope, NEVER!!

So.....
...because my weeks are always stressful and long I always try to end it well, either hang with friend or get in contact with someone I'm closed to for some positive deep conversations-basically to vent.
(THAT'S NOT REALLY THE POINT)......


.....fuck it I'll come clean-

I had a car accident. Yeah I'm writing this hours after the car accident in my bed after I popped two Advil PM for that horrible headache (no not from getting hurt-thank god), but from shock, stress, anger, I have so many emotions going on that I am a mess.

No, no one got hurt-thank god. There were no kids involved.

It was between my car and a rental car. But I see there were other accidents before mine all in the same spot.
Let's just say my car is pretty messed-up that it was towed :-(
Again no one got hurt which is more important for me I swear.
I was not the only one that was involved in the accident, it was two other cars-all because of one car on the belt, there were in total 3 cars that got towed including mine.

I was and still am very disappointed in myself, I am a careful driver and promised myself to never get into an accident but a year and two days from being a driver look what happened? :-(
I am ashamed.

I do have full coverage but that's not the point.
The point is how the fuck did I get into an accident?

Also God didn't turned his back on me and I feel so good about that. Believe me I'm sure it could've been worst.
My mother also gave me some great advice, she just made me feel so much better. Her kind words.

God also sent Mark to my rescue, for being there for me and comfort me and to gave me a ride home.
He called me many times today to check-up on me.
He is awesome.
None of my friends know about this (well now they're going to)-but I mentioned it to someone-"who cares?"-that's the vibe I get from the person. I thought that maybe they'd care but I am wrong I guess.

I am still in shock and emotional about everything.

Hope you all had a good day.

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL!

So this is when it'll be a good time to wish everyone and their mamas a Happy New Year right?

I seriously wish you all a great upcoming year.

How was last year for you all?
Seriously how was it? Was it great, awesome, bad, fucked-up, oh just "ehh! Could be better?

Mine was good and of course could be better but I am still grateful because I get to experienced every bit of it and accomplished some of my goals-not too bad right? Right :-)

Let's see here:
2012:
My good health and families, the continuing love I get from them and support.
My job which I'm grateful for even though sometimes I wanna choke most of them at my job (I'm serious about that one!)-but the company I love.

Let's see here.... Oh yeah I eliminated a lot of baggages-some I never thought I'd get rid of and sadly I did but again I come first and my well-being.
Some I should've gotten rid of years ago and god made it possible to finally do that.
Ummm..... It was confirmed that I have very few people I call friends and that I'm a loner let's see here... I think in the fall. Actually no! In the spring.
I think that's about it and I'm ok with that.

I've also met some great people that hopefully will stay in my life for good and grateful for-thank god for that.

Oh.. I'll mention this anyway because to me it is a big deal hee hee!
I got my license and got my first car-I am very happy.
I am free and all me :-)

Now next year........
... Nah! I won't be posting anything about next year till around the same time.
Some of you know that I have a tendency of jinxing myself whenever I speak my business so I'll keep it on a hush... *wink* we'll see.

HAPPY NEW YEAR MY LOVELIES!

******Be safe and don't be a pendeja/pendejos by drinking and driving!

Happy Thanksgiving world!

Today I worked (requested to)-or I'd be volunteering.
No I don't make thanksgiving a big deal like other people-why?
Because me and my family are thankful and blessed every single day for having each other, our health, the love we have and support we have for each other.
We are thankful for our job(s), the true friends we have in our lives.
It's nothing new to us.
Me on the other hand I rather work or volunteer. This year for thanksgiving I'm not volunteering (I didn't read my email on time)-which means next year I'll be making up for it :-)

Hope you all are having/had a tasty safe thanksgiving.

Sandy, what have you done?

Happy first day of November everyone!

We all know that Sandy came to visit us (which we didn't need her visit).
Sandy took lives, houses, cars, even our peace of mind.
Some people are still suffering after the effect of Sandy.

Now most public transportations are affect by this disaster.

Me-I'm home and I don't plan on going to work for the rest of the week.

I hope you all are having a safe rest of the week
Try to think positive on what's going on and make the of it-that's all we can do.




Have a good day all!

...strange but an #awesome encounter!

Lady on the train that I sat next to reached over and tapped me on the arm and (I thought WTF you tapping me for) but I turned toward her and smile and asked "yes?"
Her: forgive me but I think I should say this wether you're a believer or not. You're such a beautiful person now don't let anyone change that. You must not let anyone make you a different person you don't need to be.

(all this time I'm there listening and in my head I'm like omg who is this lady?)

Her: You have so much on your shoulders, let some of the burdens free, some don't need to be there.
Some people will try just about anything to make others lives miserable just because theirs aren't the way they wanted it to be.
Let them dig their grave and they'll find themselves digging two by trying to do wrong.
You must not worry.
The only thing that should always matter to you and must come first is your family and your health and the rest will fall into place like they should be.
I'm sorry for disturbing you and I just had to share that with you ma'am"

Then her stop and she got up and left without looking back.
That was weird and scary but so refreshing.
Not sure why but I had a good feeling too.
Like where did she came from?
Those were the questions I kept asking myself.

She made my day despite the fact that I don't know her and never seen her before on that 4 line. How the hell she knew I'm stressed-out?!

Hello world!

Good morning everyone!

I know it's been a while since I showed my traces here and please forgive me.
I'll make sure it doesn't happen again (..but do you realize how many times I've said that?)-this time I truly mean it.
A lot has been going on in my life lately and unfortunately some aren't pretty good-you know the usual (personal issues, and work). Besides that I'm doing well.

May you all have a wonderful labor day weekend.
Stay safe y'all!

...oh I almost forget: the people that sent me personal messages asking to see a recent picture of me keep scrolling to the bottom-enjoy!

....my hands are washed and moving on!

"​If you leave without a reason, do not come back with an excuse."

Just because you know someone for years doesn't make them your "best friend" or "the sister you never had", even "another sister". Believe me I learned that the hard way.

I've came across people that I've known for years, trusted and considered best friends and even "sisters" but they all hurt me and decided to walk out of my life.
The person that I am, I treat each and everyone in my life with equal respect that they deserved. I gave them no reason to treat me this way or to walk out but they did and they did it on their own.
I think that's one of the reasons I don't feel bad, because if I gave you no reason and you did it anyway well that's on you. That's why they always feel stupid and tried to come back.

I am so over some of them.
You decided to walk out on your own so stay out.
I also believe it's god's way and a sign to let me know that at the end they weren't meant to be in my life. So I will have to accept that.

....some my friendship with that person was to their advantage-I don't need that!

I have moved on.
I am smarter. Wiser and have washed my hands off-respect that!